~累~
又是三点多凌晨了…所有人都进入了美梦..唯独我…还在这儿…为着自己的前途奋斗…是为自己吗??还是因为父母的抱负…所以还在这儿…我真的很累…累到不想再做这样的自己…我知道每个人都是过着同样的生活…别人能做到的为何我做不到~~很想告诉自己我能…可是…很难….每当告诉自己要坚强…可是下一秒…又变得弱懦…不懂为何会这样…或许自己的心理辅导还不够利害..所以..一次又一次得过不了自己那关…唉…我真的超讨厌读书的我….我真的会变得另外一个人…我学不会放松..学不会放下执着…我很想让自己放纵…不想勉强自己做做不到的事…可是…不能…因为我会很内疚..明明比别人付出多一点就能达到…为何自己不付出呢…可能酱的原因吧…逼到快疯了…很怕在酱的时候写BLOG…因为自己总是藏不住自己崩溃的心情…我能装着表面像是无虑…可是又有谁知道我的内心的恐惧与不安呢??最近这几个星期…可以说是没有一晚是安心睡得…除了喝醉以外…都是带着紧绷的心情去睡..因为自己还有很多东西还没完成…不能好好的睡…很怕睡多了..浪费时间…虽然很不健康…我真的没办法…有谁能救救我??我真的很累!!!!
就如你所说，每个人都有辛苦的时候，而你觉得你特别的脆弱，其实，是你看人好，人看你好而已..很欣赏你这种不辜负父母亲的态度..也很佩服你把自己逼得那么紧却还没疯掉..(什么话嘛？)但是也要你明白别讨厌读书的你..因为每个人都会有不同的脸孔的时候..如果这就是你，那就做回自己..你一直问有谁可以救你，但每一次你都在别人救你之前，自救了！因为你的一份执著，让人佩服..希望你明白，多艰难的时候，要记得这些努力的成果是属于你自己的..你的刻苦耐劳，在将来会是一种帮你度过更艰难的工作环境..祝你一切安好！
zzz said this on November 17, 2007 at 12:28 pm
dear aa…totally und ur feeling ler…vv sun fu le… it’s true ‘u c ppl good n ppl c u good’.everyone is having their own stress, is just that different ppl manage their stress differently.so v must oso manage it well rite?dun despair le, work hard together k?al de best!
SaManTha WiF u said this on November 17, 2007 at 9:34 pm
This is my first time write command to u.but after u read when the time u see me dont scold me than ok already.haha…..i also face the same problem with you and i also do my homework until 4-5am…..but just depend how u go to face yr problem.i always use the simple way to face my problem so when the time people look at me and they will think i very 幸福 because i always nothing to do and no stress but when the time i hard nobody know so this is the thing what people always say 命水. so dont always blame yourself everything always got their best way to settle it.Take care and dont always stress yourself evrything take it easy and next time read yr blog dont always got those thing you trying to blame yrself already…….at the end also the same word (TAKE IT EASY ALWAYS THINK ON THE GOOD WAY)
-operation- said this on November 18, 2007 at 7:56 am